My Lucky Day~

I considered myself as the luckiest want for today J

Today we redeem for our Rm200 voucher. I plan to buy some stationery and books for myself and my brother. J

I finished up my 18 chapters of management syllabus. Even though I’m just able to master 50% of the questions but I have tried my best.

Woohoo!! Just now I finished up my exam earlier and on the way walking back. I’m extremely exhausted and walk under the hot sun. Someone stop his car and pick me up to my dpp. Thousand of thankful and appreciation. Thanks to our lovely VCD Hong Jian. J

Lucky right? :p

Eternity Love

I really miss my grandmother. She grows older and weaker.I'm really worrying I cannot practice my filial piety. I'm not cursing her but I cannot deny she is getting weaker right now. I sleep with her since 2 years old in a same room even same bed. How much she cares about me? Is INFINITY. I'm really missing her right now. She sacrificed a lot for our family, always spending time on my personal stuff. She loves me more than everyone. I feel guilty sometimes not treated her well, will get frustrated of her nagging. I miss her nagging. I have ever imagined if one day she mo more nag on me.................. She told me before "If I pass away you no need rush back from Kedah because very far and transportation very costly". Allow me to cry..... I really miss her right now........ I swear I will appreciate her more and more and more......... I love you po po......

Just want to hug you tightly right now......

It goes both ways…

Stubborn in your decision can be good or bad. Be stubborn in your dreams and dedications, why not? At last there will be more achievements because of your STUBBORN.

Stubborn will goes into wrong perception if you are a narrow minded person. Friendship is easy to build up but hard to maintain it. An argument that leads to misunderstanding can make such a huge changes in a friendship. Every misunderstanding needs to be ended up. What is so greatful for hiding, avoiding and get mad? Don’t you feel suffering all the time? When everyone is commenting about your inappropriate behavior, is the time for you be introspect yourself. World is not a solo show, is a community. I pretty hope someday you will ‘awake’ from your world. God Bless.

My CUTE Brother

He is wearing his school uniform :)

He is my youngest brother. A brilliant and cute brother. Today is his first day going to kindergarten. I can’t send him to school because I’m so far away. My mum told me what my brother said when he first came to school. He saw some Indians cried and he said “他们没有用，我没有哭我很good boy”. Ahahahaha… I couldn’t imagine how funny when he was talking like that. I pretty hope he will likes his new environment over there. I miss him a lot <3

How far can I move?

It’s 2.35a.m right now. I couldn’t fall sleep and I’m hugging my book right in front of my laptop. I just finished chat with Shen Chieh. First time both of us being so serious while discussing about our future matter. He has decided to run for LCP and I really fully support him as he knows what he wants. He asked me “ Do you run for VP?”. Am I eligible for this role? I’m doubting about my capability and honestly I’m not confident and not ready at all. This is my weakness right?? He is trying his best to motivate me and analyse for me. He was also zero educated when being elected as VP OGX. I did digested what he said. How far can I move? I am not sure. What I want to achieve? The answers are deep inside my heart. What I want some more? Be confident ok? Exams are surrounding me. Now I need to concentrate on my exam first. I will make the decision based on my own desire sooner and later.

Sorry...

Based on my planning i suppose to complete 3 chapters of management revision by today but I received a call that made me unable to continue it anymore. When the moment you can’t help but you really care about it, it’s just torturing. Pretending nothing happen? Or just let it be? That’s not me. I am always thinking so much whenever it comes to me. I really want to help if the situation allows me to help. I just want everyone lives happily and peacefully. That’s is a very minor request from me. My New Year 2012 doesn’t go on smoothly. Just started 3 days but sadness is more than happiness. I pretty hope there’s a day for me to share out my most happiness moment and shout to myself “ I AM REALLY VERY VERY HAPPY TODAY”. Apparently I need a shoulder. Sorry, really very sorry I couldn’t help on anything………

                                  There will be a way out right? :(

Changes on myself

I have left out my blog for a long time even didn't realize of its existence for a long period. until now i'm so willing to express many of my thoughts here because i really couldn't find a way out. I not even can tell anyone because the consequences will ruin many of my precious memory. Keep away first. I have a lot of things want to say.

Many things have changed me...

1. UUM...
I was really upset when  know i have been distributed to this university. I really dislike for being so far and leave my family. I keep grumbling all the time and even didn't speak for few days. I so refuse to come here because i keep thinking of there is not the place i should belong to. I am too overestimate myself. I have the chance to study over UPM because of my daddy can make an arrangement for it. Finally i made this decision to come over here because my best friend XP has motivated me! It doesn't matter where am i going to further study but the experience of being here. I came here with my parents' companion. Clean up the room and they leave, I didn't show my sadness in front if them. Actually i really want to cry out loudly when they leave but i tell myself must let them know their daughter is tough and able to leave at here! I did that! Now i almost end up my first semester. No regret for being here. I have learnt a lot from everyone here.

2. Friends...
Actually i don't have many friends around me. I am choosy when making friend. I just make friend with those sincere, talkative and cheerful person. After i went through few stages i realized this is not the way to survive at here. We need to live in group in order to go further. World is not a solo show yet is a community. I cannot expect everyone to have the same thinking with me. I have seen various personalities here. Their every action actually reminding myself what should or shouldn't i to be. But, i am still the way i am.

3. AIESEC
I knew this since form 6 from a friend. Just roughly heard about this. I have gone through some stages to enter AIESEC, I remember every single details of it.
The first time of being involving in AIESEC activity was the "Introduction Day". We queue to get our number then enter a dkg. First thought: CRAZY! When we entered the dkg all AIESECers were shouting and screaming. Sorry to say that the first time i really cannot accept it. They started with "Square Dance". All AIESECers were dancing in front while me, yilu and vivian feel so =.= of it. They are hyperactive. I were sitting second row. I have been pulled out by an AIESECer- Gabriel to dance with them. OMG! I feel so shameful to dance in front of so many people. I really feel very very very embarrass on that time. After that Irene as a emcee. She speaks very very well. She can speak confidently, fluently and bring up the topic so well. I was asking myself that time when i can become like her.

After few days i went for chit chat sessions, I decided to take up a role in AIESEC. My chit chatter was Christine. She interviewed me. I am nervous for a very first time to interview. We talk a lot. I feel comfortable when i was talking with her and she is so pretty. :)
she told me 'Congratulation, you can go for our emergence day'. Wahhhhh!! Surely i feel happy!

I went for emergence day. It was all about introduction of AIESEC and introduction of every roles in AIESEC. Application for roles are available. The first choice of my department was ICX-Corporate Relations and second choice of department was External Relations.

Interviewed time!! Nervous again and i am the first interviewee. My interviewer was Christine, Irene and Nam Weng. That time i feel so stress ah~~ i have been interviewed for so many questions and i try to answer it confidently with my own way. haha.

Currently: 
~I am Junior Executive of  Corporate Relations. Seriously it is a busy department and due to this i know myself lack of time management. Many reasons make me intended to give up and run away. I am tired actually. Someone said i am easily to show my tiredness on my face. I am just don't want to be like that. My healthy condition nobody could understand and i never expect whoever to understand it. IS OK! Back to the initial objective of joining AIESEC! I must enjoy it! Because of YOU i grow up and changed and know what i need to overcome. THANKS!

~After LLDS i joined MyLDS. I have been chosen as dancing queen for LC UUM. First time of being in Chief Delegates team. I'm looking forward for MyLDS 2012. I am expecting something from there..........