Who are you now?

The people who close to me lie to me. I don't know who are you anymore. I never expect you will do all this thing. Can I still put trust on you? You claim yourself mature and rational. You are not at all. You broke my heart. What can I do to help. I am angry on you but at the same time I feel you are very pity because you make your life even worse. I feel pathetic because you ruin yourself. Are you dare to share all this with your kids next time? I will scold you, shout at you but at the end I will still by your side because I know if given a choice you do not want it to happen. I am here, please talk to me :(

Confessions

At this hour (1.44am) I really hope I can hug someone and cry like hell without bothering anything. I don't know why this 2 weeks I am not emotional balance. Frustrations. I guess it is normal as it is human's nature but I want to scold people so much right now :(

Always inform at last minute and expect my time is for you all?
I have my own commitments as well. I am tired do you know that :(

Are you hinting me? Do you really care what I am thinking? If you really care please act but don't let me assume everything by myself. Are you being serious when talking to me? Do you actually want to understand each other more. If you don't please let me know and don't give me hopes anymore. I need days to away from this and let myself think deeply am I doing a right thing. Who are you to affect my mood? :'(

Local Transition Camp. I promise will deliver the best session. 4 sessions. All the best. It will pass very soon. It's the time to put on mask again and hide all the frustrations. I feel shit right now! Serious shit. Self-motivation, self-reflection, self-encouragement. So what?

Perhaps this is the most negative blog I have ever written. Cheong Kar Yen, why you become like this. Deep down, what happen to me. Can I jut hug someone and cry. I have not been crying loudly for so long. Can I...........................